woohoo Schools out 4 Summer22:01 May 31 2007
Times Read: 666
ok Today I went to my son's award ceremony. he got awarded Math, Reading, creative Writing, PE, & Citizenship awards. Then after ceremony party he was presented his 100 Book Challenge certificate (he read almost 500 books & only him & a girl got this), Governor's certificate for his artwork in the 2007 safety calendar, a t-shirt for being at the Art Show Awards couple months back, & a special certificate his teacher made he got the readers award (he's a 1st grader reading @ 3rd grade level btw). Well then he got a bucket full of goodies that us parents & teacher chipped in for things for it. Plus cake & goodies. I laughed tho when he came up to me & said "Momma you want to get a glass of red wine with me?" he was talking bout the red kool-aid lol. My son has a kick ass imagination.
Anyways we left afterwards & tomorrow is only a half-day so he's out ... I go to pick up his report card tomorrow & this year will be over with yay. Now i don't have to take him to school & go to bed whenever I want to lol plus he gets to spend a week to a couple weeks with his dad's side of the family ... yay me time lol.
My Lucky Day & How it died
21:45 May 31 2007
Times Read: 668
Sunday, May 29, 2007
This date will stick with me all my life ...
My mom, me my son, & my cuz Tabs went to the beach at Pawley's Island. Everybody but me love the creek side of it, me give me waves or give me death lol. Everything was going beyond right since I was awoken earlier that day. I mean I was finding things every where I went. Things that were lost, things yet to be found, and small treasures.
After a time of swimming the creekside I went took a dip at the waves where as usual I went out beyond the breakers or the white caps for those who know a li'l about the beach. I came back & we all went to the mini island at the tip. I'm a sucker for Abolon (sp?) shells, why buy em when I can find em. Our li'l hunt landed us with some Mermaid Purses (shark egg sacks), abalon, seaweed of many colors, kelp, shells and coral galour. When our bucket was filled we went to dump our findings in the car trunk, and returned to the creek where my cigarettes were & I went back alone. This shouldn't suprise me by now but as I walked alone I began lowly singing my siren's song (dam the siren in me at times lol) I added bunches to our collection for the seagulls usually keep a trinket or two for me & this time they had a lot more than usual, they were happy I left their fish alone, well fish heads I should say. Guess the sharks left them a bite or two. I remember a large group of Mexicans playing volleyball, a guy dangling his legs in the water talking on a cell phone, a mother watching 4 kids playing in the mini pools, etc ... as I passed by each things stopped til after my passing, unfortunately my song was heard. I walked back to where the rest of my party was, guys stopped fishing, swimming, a couple quit listening to their radio (she quit singing is how I know) ... as I passed them lowly singing. At the time I didn't notice this but I remember it.
I waded into the creek because Tabs wanted me to feel the current, upon feeling its strength I stated I was going for my last swim at the waves because if I waited I wasn't going to be able to do so and that was not in my intentions. I had to....
Other family was on that side & so my mom talked with our cousin Julie, Tabs talked wuth Julie's daughter Michelle, my son ventured out a li'l bit playing with a couple pf kids. I was going out, Tabs followed out waist deep & she didn't want me to go that far but I must at least visit that far twice before leaving. I am too connected to the sea not to.
I swam out way pat the breakers, further than before & there I simply slightly waded. I didn't do like most for I wasn't out to attract a shark thinking I'm food. Lets just say I've done this many many many times before & understand whats not wise to do. After about 15 to 20 mins I started to head back but I wasn't going anywhere. It took me a moment to realize that only a couple of inches of top water were heading to shore as the rest headed out. My first thought was to speak out loud to myself, "Don't start to panic cause you'll never make it. Besides if you panic I am so kicking your ass." So I started swimming sideways to my left for I remembered what to do if ever caught in a riptide. Though I wasn't caught in it yet. I remember I spoke to the sea "You's a bitch. You can't take me when I haven't requested it & quite frankly you never took me then, so don't start now." I was wading a bit & bingo it was as it were before the riptide so I swam to shore. I came out pass the 1st jetty behind 2 beach houses. As I came to cross the jetty there were others heading across in opposite direction. When I came to my group I was told about another who had swam out there ... out where I went. We went to the car to dry off some & it told me more of what was happening.
This 18yr old Mexican thought I was in trouble and so he swam out to help me, the one person he should never had went after but yet he heard my song as it replayed through the waves. I hate that I really do, if I'm not singing then the sea has no right to continue it. He got caught in the riptide that passed me by .... I returned to between the 1st two jetties helping as I could. I felt obligated to see this thru, I mean he went out to save me. The poor soul stood no chance for he not only went under with one riptide but was held by another. His chances of surviving or much less being found were slim at this point. After about 30 to 40 mins his body surfaced & by all means I wish I coulda shot the rescue workers on jet skis. A man with a boogie board went out to get him & the back jetski saw where he was heading & there the got him. They were unable to resecitate him on the beach & took him to the ambulance. At some point he came back faintly but he was pronounced dead at the hospital within minutes of his arrival. He was one of the guys I had seen playing volleyball ... So I dedicate this entry to that young man.
~RIP~ 5-29-07 Jose Rodriguez age: 18
He died trying to help & drowned
May the sea forever guard thee & may the Siren's song guide you home. Forever shall you be remembered & for eternity you shall be weeped over.
My Cousin Tabs B-day Party
21:10 May 31 2007
Times Read: 669
POOL PARTY!!! woohoo My cousin Tabs (short 4 Tabatha) turned 14 the 25th but her b-day party was this past Sunday, 28th.
ok Now *dreum roll* here comes the drama lol
My cousin Caroline was down from Loris which is like an hour & half away so yea I don't see much of Carebear (her nickname btw). Gotta love a new person for my cousin Tiffy Taffy (my nickname 4 her & she is Tabs 16yr sis). Well Tiff's (short 4 Tiffany) bf was there as well. Alright my grandparents, step Uncle Tommy, Aunt Bev & Uncle Billy (the girls mom & step-dad), my mom, me, my son, Tiff & Jacob (her bf), Caroline & Tabs was the entire people there. Tabs wanted only a family gathering & asked Aunt Bev to not let Jacob go. Yea well that didn't happen and if it did perhaps Tiffs attitude woulda been different. At some point my grandparents left cause the heat @ their age, blah blah like u care 2 read all that right lol
Now here is where things got good. Let me lay out the scenerio real quick like... a good 7 to 8 ft away from the pool is a lounge chair that holds my cuz Tiff on her stomach & her top undone (hence Caroline callled her a slut for this lol nice one Carebear). In the pool was just me & my son atm. Beside the pool ( directly beside the pool) was the trampoline which Jacob was on. Now out comes Carebear in her yellow bikini (she's 17 I think) & Tabs. Well Tabs breaks on the deck & Carebear joins us in the pool & then lays on the trampoline. Well Jacob starts jumping 2 annoy her & I so joined in. Not too long I jump off it back into the pool & Caroline and Jacob join as well. Jacob dunks Caroline so me & her are out to dunk him every chance we get. Caroline being herself make diff remarks like "Tiff ur bf just felt Mandys crotch" (hence he kicked me there by accident trying to get away) & "He's trying to get freaky with me" (he dunks her yet again lol) & "He's showing us his penis. I don't want 2 see that." (we were pulling him from the ladder & his swimming trunks caught air). I had already stated I didn't want jailbait (Jacob's 16) and therefore he was nicknamed jailbait when concerning me. My cuz Tiff got up from "sunning" to get into the poll for like 10 mins to talk Jacob to get on the trampoline. When he folowed her she laid on the trampoline like she did in the lounge chair ... ignoring him yet once again.
Alright I will back track a li'l bit. Tiff had received sexual texts from a friends ex the night before & I unknowingly answered the text that came in as I was putting on my bathing suit in her room. Well she told Jacob about it and so forth. Jacob witbessing the texts from the night before hand wasn't pleased he texted her again but couldn't be mad at me for RE'ing. Other texts came thru out the day, at some point Jacob was curious & he looked at them & the replies Tiff made.... he was pissed about something. Tiff made a huge deal out of the fact that Uncle Billy wouldn't let her use the car which was to go into the shop this Monday. So she stormed out & saddled the horses and so those 2 left.
When my mom, me & my son left we also took Tabs & Carebear to my grams. Here I found out how much my cousin Tiff was pissed off @ what was taking place in the pool, she was mad at Caroline btw. *phew* Finally it didn't include me supposedly "Wanting her man." Carolines response was that she didn't want his ugly ass, which she said loud enuff 4 Tiff & Jacob to hear lol good one Carebear.
I also now knew she was envious & both me & Carebear. Odd but my bf & Carebear's bf look a lot alike ... only diff is some facial features & age. So yea Tiff drooled .. a lot. As a matter of fact I recall her telling herself she has Jacob. lmao omfg It was a riot & please understand this was only a small touch of drama that occured that day. I can write a whole fucking book on it if I wanted to lol
...08:37 May 22 2007
Times Read: 677
There are times that you know where you are suppose to go.
Most the time you feel as if you don't hear what you yearn to hear it will break too deep.
Then there are times that failure shows its ugly face and its time to say so.
When you cannot bear to see them with another, the ones who haunts your sleep.
The voice you hear in the silence, the warmth that comes from nowhere.
It then dawns to you that you must ask before it is too late.
This burden of emotions and silence soon feel as if they are too much to bear.
I don't ask that you love me but I do hope that it will be my fate.
A gentle embrace, a passionate kiss, a feeling like no other, the chance to be happy.
My Stats in LRN Olympics
05:25 May 10 2007
Times Read: 687
Woohoo I tied at 4th. I didn't win anything but dam glad I got in the top 5 ^.^
Here's the sections I participated in & my standings in each.
overall: 8 points
Favor earned: 1 pt is awarded Catalunah Favor earned: 12
Coven trivia: 1st place
VR Themed Picture Contest: 1st place
Baby Picture Contest: 3rd place
Poetry Contest: 3rd place
what can I say
12:29 May 02 2007
Times Read: 696
I must admit that I wear my masks very well, sometimes too well. It seems that I tend to even lie to myself into believing that everything is alright. That when I feel like crying its a mere coincidence or that when I am angered I should stop & think as to why to only fill my head with other thoughts. I seem to pretend to sleep but in reality I am still about somewhere. I've been astral projecting, going from one plane to another, so many things...
I honestly do not know what all is wrong with me, I can't take time to think thru it all. Sadly enough is the fact that I don't care to know. Past, present, future .. its like this saying: Tomorrow you can never have back, Today you wish for it to return & say to yourself I'll do it tomorrow but, Tomorrow never comes.
I think it is time for me to go back into hiding now ... to be the puppet or the actress who wears many masks. On here I portray that I am happy & life is grand ... shit I do this in r/l as well. Underneath it all though, I am someone that no one truly wants to know...
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